I wanna sit down
and be quiet and get to know myself
in silence,
it’s hard to do that
i’ve sat on park benches and tried to understand others, by observing them,
movements, strides, clothing, shapes, skin color and all
but not myself, that’s a lot easier to do, and still impossible
but…
but
to know myself, that takes time and silence
and I’m addicted to alllll this stuff,
sights, sound and noise coming at me
and work… those 40 hours…that paycheck
if I was brave I would quit it alllll
and go towards the isolation road
but I don’t
the world has me in her clutches
and rides me as she pleases
and I forget it all, like a lap dance