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I follow more than they follow me

I’m not bothered by it, I try to drop this ego

which is a difficult thing to do, its easy to think

that world is Maya, because of the clever

injustice of the whole thing, games and

forever seeking out purity, and authenticity

but that is rarely in sight

I would rather follow others, other people

can be so interesting, if you let them of course

more interesting than yourself,

if you could drop your fucking EGO

Who Am I?

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I am not the body

I am not my fingers

my lungs, toes

eyes, nor breath

there is something else which is going on

the mind growths and decays

along with the body

but something else remains

when you really focus on it

when you really focus on it

everything you have learned disappears

along with your own thoughts

and desires

there is something other than your heart

and your lungs

this thing connects you with the whole

and is equal to bugs and insects and trees

I am a mortal man, and think of those

who are no longer here in the body, the dead

they are some where

just not in front of me, cant be perceived through the senses

but this, I can feel, just as a tree

lives,

I am nowhere near as profound

as Ramana Maharshi

But the I is not me

it is our world

and your ego, is not you

at all

The Sun Was Nice Though

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As I read my Facebook feed,

I read about a kid having a heroin overdose death (early twenties)

a friend of mine’s brother shot to death on the street by an officer of the law (early twenties)

more Donald Trump news

Ugggh

and life feels like a bad action movie or GTA,

straight murder and dope,

blood on all of our palms

but it goes on

for some, today is a nice day

85 degrees and a cool breeze blowing

I can not silence my mind though,

while driving around in it

thinking, and worrying about some future time

plans plans plans

escape escape escape,

coding, bank account, a side hustle

and I hope my car don’t breakdown

I should enjoy this day in the moment

with the sun shining on everything

like nothing bad ever happened to anyone

the sun hitting the trees with that cool breeze

as i think i could care less about this romantic shit

I’m not one with nature

I could probably live in space in a climate controlled environment

of course

but the sun was nice out today

even with the other drivers terrifying

me with the cars and them driving those terrible things

the gamble

to live for today or tomorrow

to live for the weekend

or a holiday or vacation,

forget today, because there will be

many more tomorrows

this is how a lot of people live

“delayed gratification”

not saying it’s wrong or right

it’s just there and is taught

and I think of a fool and wise man

the stereotype of a fool being reckless and spending

and the wise man, saving while waiting for an imagined future

it don’t work, it don’t work or may work

but no one knows what tomorrow will bring

so some of us try to live as best we can

with these dice and cards of life

 

Advice

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I am not comfortable giving it

it seems silly and stupid to me

and I don’t know why?

People are always giving it out

but most of it is terrible,

very little of their advice has

worked for me,

and is probably why I scorn their words,

and resent giving out advice

there is nobody that walk your unique path

your path is your own, and is given to you

by the universe,

and no one can walk it for you.